How would a teenager feel if his or her parents spied on their mobile phone?

I got all my mobile rights taken away a few months ago; no phone, no school iPad, no drawing tablet. Not even at school.

I snuck my iPad a lot, just to talk and draw. That’s it. One day I was in the living room and my dad walked in, and saw it. Not only did he read through my texts with someone, he went though my entire iPad. All the tabs opened, my photos, drawings (a few got deleted) and then went through my phone.

My mom called me into her room, demanding why I thought it was okay to “disrespect her like this” as I am only 14 years old. She demanded to know as she gave me shelter, food, and the “freedom” of expressing myself.

As in response she said she didn’t have to let me wear tee-shirts, pants, or tennis shoes. She could make me wear bright pink dresses and make me grow my hair long and break all my devices. Including my fucking school iPad, which she said she would have made me pay for.

It escalated quickly, both of us yelling, mind you this is the first time I have ever yelled to any of my parents ever in my 14 years of life. She yelled about me “faking” my mental issues and hurting myself for attention, and even threatened to take me out of DBT therapy.

As punishment, she made me put everything but my bedding and clothes in bins and put it in my dad's car so I couldn’t do anything. This included my drawing stuff, jewelry, journals, pictures, money; anything that was mine.

In these multiple months that I had nothing to distract me or anyone to even talk to outside of school I almost went through with suicide and had broken down in front of my best friend who I have never cried in front of before then. I relapsed, so now there are huge ass scars on my arms and I’m now no longer allowed to wear long sleeves in the house.

I was an anxious wreck, my dad even went though my phone photos and scolded me for a picture of me without a shirt on. All I could think in that moment was “thank god he didn’t see me with my trans flag on” because lord knows he would send me to a conversion camp faster than I could even blink. He is a strong believer that all gays and trannies are going to hell; even me because he thinks I’m gay.

I was an anxious wreck every time they went into the kitchen where my phone was, I was scared they would find my Instagram which I am NOT allowed to have.

I have since changed my phone language to Japanese so they can’t read anything, but I can. I’ve stopped going to my LGBTQ youth group, since my mom says the kids there aren’t good for me. I delete my and my girlfriend’s texts a lot, so she doesn’t see them and see that I’m using he/him pronouns and going by Finn.

How do I feel when my parents go though my phone?

Utterly and completely terrified and worthless. If I am not worthy of privacy like any human, what am I worthy of?

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EDIT2- omg over six hundred upvotes and 12k views thank youuu

note- guys my parents are genuinely good people, I promise. This is the first and only time this has ever happened, and I’ve been struggling in school for years. Please please please stop insulting them and telling me to call CPS on them. I have siblings and if I’m removed they would be removed too. I would have to live with my bio Dad and his wife which I hate even thinking about. Please, they’re good people :/ I love them a lot and I never meant to make them look like terrible parents who yell all the time. They’re really good people, and I am not calling anyone to report.